This Mother's Day I want to share what I've learned about being a mother in the past few years I've had the privilege of being one.
Motherhood is hard but it's good, it's taught me to be self motivated and learn and grow from my experiences so that my baby doesn't experience the mess that spills over from unresolved conflicts, unforgiven hurts and unlearned lessons. I can't afford that anymore, I can't be passive aggressive about growth or timid towards conflict, I have to be bold because I'm her mother and she deserves to be taught truth and I cannot teach what I haven't walked through. Motherhood holds me accountable, it pushes me to seek truth and do what is right so I can give the best to my child and pray that God blesses it. I have to be better than I was yesterday so she can learn how to work hard, how to go through change and how to be still when needed.
I'm responsible for my actions, for my decisions and for my shortcomings. This is not some self help thing but the truth that motherhood has allowed me to embrace. I cannot make selfish decisions that'll be at the cost of my baby. Whether it be time, money or kisses, I choose to invest them on her in abundance because I choose her. I choose to spend time kissing her face instead of ......(insert what you like) for me it's exploring the city all by myself...it's been ages :) but I wouldn't trade it for the world. I cannot steal time from her because it'll cost her far greater than what it'll me, and in reality it doesn't cost me anything it only adds beauty and meaning to my life. It's such a win win and I love it.
Motherhood continues to teach me to pray, to rely on the Lord for all the fears that creep up in my head and make my heart hurt a bit. Fears that stem from knowing how evil and unjust this world is for such an innocent little girl. Fears of inflicted wounds from hurt people who know only how to hurt, fears that stem from knowing I am not sufficient to protect and guard all of her experiences. But these fears truly lead me to my knees, I pray to God for his guidance, protection and redemption. I pray for good friends, kind teachers, gentle men and fierce mentors. I pray for God's hedge of protection to debilitate (yes I said debilitate when it comes to my baby my prayers are fiery and loud and bold) the enemy's power and extinguish his fiery darts.
I love to imagine all the beautiful possibilities this little one has in front of her, I loosely hold all my dreams and hopes for her knowing that the one who created her has the say and I'm simply the facilitator of His call on her life. Whatever He calls her to, I hope and pray and seek and wait with excitement to see her go and live it out, as I anticipate all the beautiful ways she's going to bless this world and her family. This gift that God has blessed me with is one that keeps giving because she's a daily reminder to keep going, believing, trusting and seeking the one who created this sweet little miracle and a glimpse of his mysteries. I praise God for this gift and pray for a Christ seeking journey and a redeemed heart that knows to follow Him wherever He calls her.
To the Mothers reading this, Happy Mothers day! I'd love to hear what motherhood has taught you, can you comment below? And if you you're not a mother yet or having a baby is not in the picture...we are called to be spiritual mothers so tell me about those you're discipling, mentoring and leading?